last time during tough times spent in 5th coy, where my body was telling itself it cannot go on, when every step seemed like 2 steps backwards, when it seems the torture will never end, when i question myself whether i can even pull through;
when you feel you're alone, cut off from this cruel world, your instinct's telling you to run.
my mind often drifts to the sea, the breeze of the park's coastline, the smile on your face, the sight of my favourite food, the laughter, my bed;
listen to your heart, those angel voices, they'll sing to you they'll bring you right back home.
and i find myself being able to continue on, to take everything with a pinch of salt. and the whole world seems to freeze and im playing the song back and forth in my mind and i go blank.
when life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind.
and im afraid, the next 3 weeks is going to be another 5th coy experience. so please, as i lay on my bed staring at the ceiling, let me hold on to this moment. and may this moment come back when i need it most.
army has changed some of the ways i do things, the way i think. but deep inside, i am still the same person a year ago.
current biggest worry: my health, IPPT and missing out on my 21st birthday.
-RomE
let go of all this material thinking and you will be a happier person.
if not, your mind will forever be preoccupied.
