JeRomE's Blog

2012-01-27T21:32:00.000+08:00

if i survive taiwan and come back, and she's still available.

i swear i will make you mine.

miss e

hahahahahahahahaha

for now 2 months suck thumb first. FTW!

2012-01-22T10:36:00.001+08:00

ushering the chinese new year at sembawang wharf. another first in my life.

keep calm and endure.

2012-01-02T17:04:00.001+08:00

i'll use my COS this saturday to sit back and reflect on the previous year, 2011.

its always good to look back to remember, our past defines us.

all the auld lang synes mean nothing when your new beginning doesn't come from some other beginning's end.

the first beginning is always important.

2011-12-28T16:39:00.002+08:00

you have no idea how long i waited to give that to you

or how long i took to buy that

or where i bought it from

or the meaning behind it

'we bought a zoo' was pretty awesome, its my dream!

wanting to bring ethan along was a bad choice though.. kinda ruined the night.. oh well

2011-12-27T11:34:00.002+08:00

how could i possibly give someone advice that i don't even follow?

stupid me.

wake up your bloody ideas and get your priorities right pls..

WASTE YOUR HOLIDAYS ALL YOU WANT, YOU'RE NOT GETTING THEM BACK FOR THE NEXT 4 MONTHS.

YAY!

2011-12-26T15:59:00.001+08:00

you are right, i was such an idiot for loving you all those years back.

2011-12-17T15:52:00.002+08:00

Its 630 in the morning and my alarm rings but I hit the snooze button. 15 minutes later mom comes in and rushes me.

"645 already!!! You want to be late again?"

I take 10 minutes to change up and gulp my cup of milo. It takes years of practice to be able to achieve such record breaking time. I run to the bus-stop. Its already 7.

945 is finally here, with a swift switch to 941 at the interchange I might just make it in time for school.

7.18 is exactly the time I step in, basketball court users slowly filing out to the main carpark for flag raising. Today, I shall serve no detention and there's no need to trick the junior prefects.

One of the senior prefects gives the regimental orders of the school. I mean announcements. Doesn't really concern me, my mind drifts to the events of the day that are yet to come.

"Dismissed."

I rush to my locker to grab my textbooks, wary of Mr Lee who is forever catching students who use their lockers only after the morning assembly. I pile a handful into my sling bag and hurry up the stairs to the classroom.

My awesome secondary school life begins.

2011-12-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

there was this girl i liked in secondary school, but well, i was young and i didnt really care for anything other than basketball and bros

2011-12-13T23:05:00.002+08:00

fantasies about the salad days..

if only we could turn time round

2011-12-11T20:22:00.002+08:00

visited grandma today at bedok. had a really short conversation with her. it went sth like that. (translated from teochew to english of course)

me: how are you grandma?

g: im good, how old are you this year?

me: 22

g: time pasts really fast, how long more to ORD?

me: yes time flies, 8 more months to go

g: good good, you have adapted quite well to military?

me: yes i have

g: how old are you again this year?

me: u guess?

g: i think you're 20 something

me: im 22.

*after 10 seconds*

me: how old am i grandma?

g: i dont know, i think you should be 20 plus?

hitting the dreaded 90 soon and taking more pills a day then i drink cups of water. i couldnt stop myself from thinking: "for how long more will i still be able to see you as you are?"

the 10 minutes was well worth the 2 hour journey to and fro from west to east. just so i could have a slice of memory of my grandma while she was still living.

me? i may be selfish but i do not wish to live that long. but thats not a choice, it all boils down to fate.

welcome december, you have finally come. i have waited a long time for you.

its time to do the things i have wanted to do all year long in these short 3 weeks.

maybe even asking the apple of my eye out.. hahahahahahahaha.. i reminisce too much about secondary school days..

a more detailed update soon.

-RomE

2011-11-25T22:41:00.001+08:00

my mind is at crossroads right now

i don't even know what i want

2011-11-25T16:59:00.002+08:00

i caught my first movie ever alone. it was 'the immortals' at amk hub.

milestone. break through of my life.

weekend burnt fully again tml. hello hello talk to me once its december.

why is the whole world so damn busy with everything else?

the leg massage today with dad was super duper awesome though.

another key event this week was the purchase of 90$ worth of clothes within like 10 minutes from cotton on. long story shall save it for another day

cant stop reminiscing about the old days. seriously, only yesterday was the time of our lives..

i miss my secondary school days, i wanna watch the apple of my eye.

but everyone NUT FREE. TMD! really needa broaden my social network..

should i talk to A? but its like so weird.. i MAY try. no promises.

tc!

2011-11-12T09:48:00.000+08:00

only yesterday was the time of our lives

ace queen diamonds are no good.

2011-11-07T10:55:00.002+08:00

im so damn disappointed with myself

what happened to the discipline?

no more gambling. if you gamble again this year, you will remain single forever.

seriously. fuck me.

2011-10-30T18:11:00.001+08:00

every new beginning come from some other beginning's end.

4 day short week. lets get me a date for friday? hahahahahahahahaha

you wish.

2011-10-24T15:42:00.002+08:00

you dont know how much i wish the zombie apocalypse will come soon..

then maybe finally, serving in the infantry will have its perks.

past 3 days have been nothing short of awesome. seriously block leave is the (Y)!

enjoying every minute, every second of it.

2011-10-02T14:19:00.002+08:00

somethings shouldn't be postponed.

its time to get a one before all the good ones have been taken.

question is: how?

2011-10-01T12:55:00.002+08:00

i can't wait to return to the life of a student, cant wait to meet new people.

cant wait for army to be OVER.

waaay too much time spent blog hopping reading about other people's lives..

2011-09-28T20:45:00.002+08:00

dear october, a new challenge awaits. the change that is very much welcomed has arrived.

keep calm and adapt.

dear november, you're gonna pass just like a shower in april.

keep calm and go with the flow.

dear december, you'll be the one chance for fun.

keep calm and enjoy yourself.

dear january, its time to accept a month thrown away.

keep calm and endure.

dear february, the killer time is here. struggles ensue but stay strong.

keep calm and pull through.

dear march, the ending is near, look forward.

keep calm and complete it.

and my near future has been laid out, its gonna be a hectic half year.

no regrets. bravo boleh!

-RomE

contemplative and calm

2011-09-18T19:01:00.003+08:00

"i am so happy and contented with my life right now and there's nowhere else i'd rather be and nothing else i'd rather do than stay where i am and do what i do."

i wonder how long it'll take before i can say that.

have a little faith, to see through yet another day.

its been more than 10 months, and i still hate it every single time i have to book in.

grant me the wisdom to look beyond, and to find the purpose in my doings.

i've been keeping my mind wide open

2011-09-11T01:48:00.003+08:00

to my dearest bro, quan, the only thing i can say is

be glad it happened, take away the good memories and leave behind anything else. smile, cos both of you were worth it.

after discovering her blog just today, to be honest, i am jealous. you are one lucky guy. tts definitely something i havent experienced. still keeping my fingers crossed.

reading 'have a little faith - mitch albom' has opened my world once more. what MM lee say is true, sometimes you gotta invest in things that are more important in life. eg: finding your significant other.

life has been pretty kind to me lately, even in 4SIR. i promise to work as hard as i can for my new OC, partly because he reminds me of my best budd chew and also the fact that he is my role model for now in the army. PC is leaving too. lets hope the new PC treats me better as well.

respect is not earned. respect is exchanged. for you to gain respect from me, you must show me some respect as well.

hey come on why are you doing this to me? i am just an NSF trying to serve his time in the SAF, how hard must i try to gain your respect?

well, i give up. i think about this and i realise: damn, why do i even give a shit whether or not he respects me??

i don't do well with the often forgotten side of society: the less educated people. don't ask me why, i just don't think or speak like them.

but for myself, my future, my fellow workers: i will try, but should i fail, it all boils down to my first statement. at least i gave it a shot. i have no regrets.

winning the battle but losing the war. its always difficult to keep your priorities right..

mood right now is calm, and strangely so. considering i have a million thoughts running around.

today was awesome, had breakfast with parents at the market, lunch@mayim with the family and then dinner@koreanBBQ to celebrate fred's 21st. im eating far too much good food. i blame the lack of pictures on my blog to the fact that i haven't been able to use a camera phone since 10 months ago. :(

i think the ice wine is finally getting into my blood stream. and by the way it tastes totally awesome.

its about time i fade into my warm bed. retrogade!

goodnight world, thnks fr the mmrs s fr!

-RomE

seasons come and go

but i will never change

2011-09-04T17:26:00.003+08:00

my god even im now restricted from posting stuff on my facebook..

i think i better delete all the army ppl so that i can continue to bitch about how fucked up my life is right now..

seriously.

2011-09-02T17:53:00.002+08:00

what is true happiness?

not being afraid of being judged. living life carefree and having fun everyday. eating the most awesome and sumptious food. sitting infront of the computer 10 hours a day killing time watching shows.

OHMAHGAWD I JUST BURNT 3 DAYS AWAY~~~~ LOOOL

i've so much pent up energy!!!!!! RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

2011-09-02T10:25:00.001+08:00

i never thought i'd be able to say this but its finally true.

i've walked a hundred miles, seen a hundred thousand smiles

not one of them as beautiful, as beautiful as yours.

2011-09-01T15:16:00.001+08:00

having lunch alone at a busy shopping centre was.. an experience.. the meal was awesome too. try going a month without pork and you'd delight in the kway chap's delicious succulence.

i've finally got abit of an idea how to start, problem is im so darn lazy.

treasure this times, cause the good times never last.

2011-08-31T15:51:00.003+08:00

being in a jungle has indeed opened my eyes once again to how blessed everyone is living back home, in comfort and how life is so awesome when you're not in the SAF.

been having a nagging at the back of my head to start writing my book but haven't really found the inspiration or time to, i wonder when i will.

anyway, i've compiled a list of stuff i would like to do back in Singapore while i was having my last exercise over there. written in marker pen over my map and sealed in a ziplock bag, it was religiously copied out onto my trusty black notebook.

past 2 days have been nothing short of awesome, JB trip with harn, 2 great massages, aliens&cowboys and overall really jaw-dropping great food.

i've grown. both physically and mentally. i've learnt to look at life with a wider perspective now, material wealth and well-being aren't as important to me now. i'd like a simple and meaningful life.

call me selfish, but i'd like to live happy. and happiness is all that matters at this point of time.

2011-08-09T22:08:00.003+08:00

cause im leaving on a jet plane, 3 weeks and i'll be back again.

thanks for the memories.

supperftw, thefamilyfeastoffortune, the21stsentosagetaway, autismsendoff, thedatethatwasntadate, thepreseasoncomebackmatch, roomlivingandlaptop and agreatmealtogether.

past 4 days have been nothing short of awesome. i seem to have space-bar problems. heh.

until then, seeyou!

-RomE

2011-08-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

the greatest irony happened today.

just exactly a week ago, a cat freaked the hell out of me through a sick and dumb prank that some bravo seniors played on me when i was on duty.

today, i saved the life of a kitten.

to cut a long story short, i feel life is throwing me lessons. and you know life's imperfect.

i no longer can laugh at depression, nor can i forget the passing of a fellow student, a friend and a soldier. though we may not have been close friends, your abrupt departure has been an awful shock and i pray your soul rests in peace, junsheng.

this week has been a whirlwind of emotions. the last time i was so broken was 5 years ago, and i cannot believe just a month into my command tour at 4SIR that i'd have to undergo such intense shit that the tears just flowed without control.

it was fucked up.

i'd elaborate more. maybe in the near future. maybe soon i'll be able to write my own book.

-RomE

having the life sucked out of you

2011-07-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

its scary how i looked into the mirror today and saw a stranger staring back at me.

this stranger no longer had the sparkle in his eyes, the fire that drives him on, the passion that keeps him fuelled or the bewilderment of all things.

this stranger no longer had a smile on his passive face, a trait he often wondered about for so many others whom he crossed paths with.

this stranger no longer looked purposeful, or confident.

i'm a little bit afraid. i really am.

happiness, where have you gone?

i'm getting tired and i need something to hold on to.

-RomE

2011-07-24T17:34:00.002+08:00

i've found it.

you dont need something to look forward to, life itself will throw you unexpected pleasures while you just live it and you cant even plan them.

how do you plan to see a shooting star in the middle of a navigation exercise?

who would have thought playing with a stray black cat could be so fun?

being happy at the thought of how an eye-candy said you were cute?

arh, and im not so depressed now. all is good in the world.

2011-07-17T13:38:00.002+08:00

i've finally found out the reason why life has come to such a standstill. im not happy.

theres no thrill in life, theres no excitement, no emotion, no adrenaline. nothing to look forward to in the near future.

its like walking down life's winding road but suddenly i stopped and thought about why i am walking this road in the first place.

even conversations with my best friends have become routinely and not as enjoyable as times before.

everyday's just another day. and i dont know how to escape from this.

today was spent like a typical day during my polytechnic years.. and even if i hope so much for it to come back, it just didnt feel as good as it did last time.

i think i need change, i need something new.

but where can i find it?

2011-07-10T14:05:00.002+08:00

i'm stuck.

it could be the flu thats residing in my body, the hot weather or just my mind in a fuzzy state.

but right now at this point in time, i'm stuck.

and i cannot differentiate between what matters and what i want anymore.

life has become so mundane, so.. dare i say it? meaningless.

if not for my 3 Fs, i'd have gone crazy

Family, Friends and Future.

stay true.

2011-07-10T00:35:00.003+08:00

on my bed i lie awake at night hoping that i'd never fall asleep,

the surrounding that's all too familiar gives me an unimaginable comfort.

i know that when i close my eyes and morning comes,

the next night will not be as beautiful as tonight.

with pleasure under pressure?

2011-07-09T11:24:00.002+08:00

past 2 weeks have been a whirlwind in my life, unit life is seriously so different from training school.. until now im still not quite adapted to their working ways.

work/life balance? no such thing exist in my life right now.. really have to find the motivation to go on for the next 1 year of my life.

5 Cs i swear i will stick to:

DON'T

Complain: because it doesn't help in anyway, in the end you'll still have to go through it

Compare: because its what you make of the situation you're in, comparing yourself with others will just make you unhappy

Curse: yourself or others because it makes things worse

Change: yourself just for the sake of pleasing others, remain a strong individual and believe in yourself.

Cry: because its better to smile even if you're 6 feet underground and your body and mind is pushed to the limits.

The next 1 year of my life belongs to the SAF, and there's nothing i can about it. and since its gonna take so much away from me, i might as well take as much as i can away from it too.

goodbye good life, i'll see you when i ORD.

-RomE

2011-06-25T12:48:00.001+08:00

dinner with my family last night at jack's was awesome. im so glad the whole family is so supportive of whatever i do, even if it means graduating from SCS with my sergeant rank..

3SG Jerome Lim

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha, happy birthday C!

2011-06-25T12:44:00.003+08:00

how very funny, i was clearing my cupboard when i found a packet of pretz pizza flavour.

and how it was the first thing chris had given to me, and that i couldnt bear to eat it because of its symbolism. because she wrote LMS on it.

the expiry date is 11.11.08 and manufacturing date is 11.01.08

its now 25.06.11. its been nearly 3 years. how time flies. im glad she has found someone else, someone that could probably keep the sunshine smile..

and all im left with are the memories..

4SIR, here i come! no regrets.

2011-06-19T11:30:00.002+08:00

i've been pretty stressed these days, with my NTU mech interview coming right up and infantry postings coming out also.. its been a roller coaster ride this week..

my infantry posting options look really bleak, its like theres no good option for my next 14 months which is really really saddening. to think if im chosen for guards i might even consider signing on in the airforce to avoid it..

call me a wuss or whatever, but seriously, im already adopting a whole new level of negatives even before im chosen for such a posting. haiz.

thought about alot of things regarding my future this week and i havent reached a conclusion..

its not easy to be me.

-RomE

2011-05-21T12:48:00.002+08:00

with a head full of short hair and a bagpack, it feels like im going back to tekong on the first day of enlistment.. the feeling is like pretty excited but also pretty sad that i'd have to serve..

3 weeks away from home, im touched the family is actually sending me off at the airport.

when im back i want to accomplish what i have been trying to do for the past year.

seeya! :D

2011-05-17T11:15:00.002+08:00

what a waste, for such a young and pretty girl's candle to burn out before her time was due..

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/teenage-girl-falls-her-death-ang-mo-kio-140049870.html

rip, though i do not even know who you are.

to all the people suffering from heartbreak out there, do know that the ocean is vast and with so many people on the planet there will definitely be another one who will fill your life with so much happiness you will forget all the bad things from the past and love life more than ever.

im cynical at the moment. and i had this weird dream. i met this girl on the bus and she lived just a block away from me and i invited her over to my house to take something. but my room was in a mess because my mom had just 'tornado-ed' it because i did not keep it tidy enough. weird much. probably been watching too much 'how i met your mother' season 1.

too little time to gather my thoughts. a few days time and i'll be the further from home for the longest time ever in all my 21 years living on the planet. and i know how much i'll miss everything. its funny how i always laugh at the people going overseas to study/work at how much they keep saying they'll miss this and miss that but now that i get a little taste of leaving home it becomes all too real.

lyrics of my life:

first of may - olivia ong

-RomE

2011-05-11T16:15:00.002+08:00

i find that its so easy to critic a stranger.

"why this person so stupid cannot let go?"

when i myself have no right to judge.

at least im realistic. sometimes.

bah. 32km over. my feet ache like hell but hopefully a new badge on my no. 4 uniform..

shall update with something more detailed soon during the long break before thailand. until then~

2011-04-18T14:37:00.001+08:00

and i've finally got myself a place in NTU, triple E. the end of my worries regarding local uni.. i am one happy guy! :D and this week is a pretty relax week too!! just wish that i had something else to go with it.. wishful thinking.. hahahahahaha -RomE

2011-04-13T19:04:00.003+08:00

uni interview tml morning.. for SIT, and i don't even know if what im gonna learn is going to benefit me in the future.. best not to think too much, just get the place, get the degree incase NTU rejects you again and then start your career with at least a degree minimum.

nothing much going on in my mind recently.. the past long weekend was pretty sweet.. caught lunch with osh at wm on sat, followed by Rio at town with justin&co and ending it was manutd and poker at my place.

sun was soccer day in a long long time, maybe like 5 months?? then the original GLM at aljunied courtesy justin. met cousins at grand cathay for Limitless followed by "dinner" at Octopas (some spanish bar at clark quay). Advice: dont bother unless you're drinking there, their food is prepared probably to go well with beer since it was freaking saltish and pretty steep.

mon was supposed to be spent in malaysia having foot massage and seafood but the smart me left my passport in camp. hooray to a day at home! had lunch with ma at wm's kway chap though.. (Y)

on another note, i should probably find myself a new goal since the old one has so obviously became un-obtainable. cant believe i could be so blind for so long.. but really, if only i could tell you the things i want to say but dont have the guts to.. for now im kinda aimless..

whats the point of being a sgt? whats the point of being a soldier? i think choosing a half-tiring half-relax vocation is the better of 2 evils so i guess yea.... wish me luck tml!

-RomE

did you sail across the sun did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded and that heaven is overrated

2011-04-01T22:29:00.002+08:00

as i squeezed the camo cream on my palm, my eyes glance to the 50cent sized patch of green lying there waiting to be applied onto my face i wonder..

what the f am i doing here?

you got to go through hell to know what is heaven.

and everyday you wake up only to look forward to the end of the day having nothing to look forward to..

ASLC, always suckthumb lanlan continue..

lucky number twenty-one

2011-03-26T23:45:00.002+08:00

gotta leave this post here! 14 more minutes till i turn 21 and its counting down as i type.

today was AWESOME. to tell you the truth, i havent been so happy for a long long time. the time invested in my family was really worth it. a big big thank you to the whole lim family for everything.

cant believe im already so old, small boy no more..

happy birthday to me. =D

2011-03-23T14:11:00.002+08:00

im turning 21 on sunday, and i've absolutely no idea how im going to celebrate it..

birthday number 20 was my substituition i guess, not its not a valid excuse for not throwing a big one.. i'll see how again in the future.. haha

lets take things one step at a time

2011-03-14T13:28:00.002+08:00

last time during tough times spent in 5th coy, where my body was telling itself it cannot go on, when every step seemed like 2 steps backwards, when it seems the torture will never end, when i question myself whether i can even pull through;

when you feel you're alone, cut off from this cruel world, your instinct's telling you to run.

my mind often drifts to the sea, the breeze of the park's coastline, the smile on your face, the sight of my favourite food, the laughter, my bed;

listen to your heart, those angel voices, they'll sing to you they'll bring you right back home.

and i find myself being able to continue on, to take everything with a pinch of salt. and the whole world seems to freeze and im playing the song back and forth in my mind and i go blank.

when life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind.

and im afraid, the next 3 weeks is going to be another 5th coy experience. so please, as i lay on my bed staring at the ceiling, let me hold on to this moment. and may this moment come back when i need it most.

army has changed some of the ways i do things, the way i think. but deep inside, i am still the same person a year ago.

current biggest worry: my health, IPPT and missing out on my 21st birthday.

-RomE

let go of all this material thinking and you will be a happier person.

if not, your mind will forever be preoccupied.

2011-03-05T16:49:00.001+08:00

happiness is only real when shared.

-into the wild/2007

off-day duties and arguments

2011-03-02T13:00:00.002+08:00

im one selfish asshole when it comes to such matters

but im trying to change that and make ammends.

put yourself in my shoes, what would you have done?

2011-02-27T17:05:00.002+08:00

i finally learnt how to playing 'moving forward-getcape.wearcape.fly.' on the guitar while singing! whooopeee!

spent freaking hours on big bang theory, simpsons and american idol. had a wedding dinner last night and kway chap at westmall with my family. awesome-ness.

still feeling abit sick though.. hope i can recover soon.. pre-book in syndrome already starting to kick in..

will probably want to do a recap of 2010 since i havent had the time for it probably when i have more free days off.. (soon too! *winks winks*)

needa get a date for 'i am number 4' on friday. any takers? :D

-RomE

2011-02-15T18:32:00.002+08:00

i've been at this screen for a pretty long time and i dont really know what i want to type here.. cant reveal what i've been doing due to army confidentiality issues..

life is fine i guess, this 2 weeks going to be a long time before i get to go home once again to my dear bed. dad recently once again mentioned about wanting me to give 'cross-over' to officer a try.. but im not really sure if i want that kind of life.. yes, its prestigious but hey! i'll have to burn alot of time and effort going through the motion..

if i have a son i would probably want him to try to be an officer too.. haiz i really dont know.. IPPT alone cant get gold encik probably wont recommend me for a cross over anyhows..

TSK. sergeant also not that bad wad...

2011-02-06T14:04:00.002+08:00

its been a bad CNY gambling period for me.. lost an estimate $200 in the short holidays.. with plenty more gambling to come later..

holidays never last long..

2011-02-04T11:03:00.003+08:00

you try to grab hold of that feeling, the feeling that you once knew to be the light of your life

but its gone, and the light no longer guides you.

still in the process of writing the script of my life, taking one step at a time.

we're marching on.

have a happy cny! =D

-RomE
GC

2011-01-29T19:42:00.002+08:00

i finally decided to change my blog song to my current ear candy song..

I GOTS MY SILVER FOR IPPT!

zomg so friggin happy. 100 bucks. no more pressure to perform. no need to worry everytime i gain some weight.. no need to worry when i have snacks...

AWESOME-NESS. oreo, maggi mee, burger, gummy bears, cookie bars, snickers..

EHEHEHEH IM GONNA BE A FAT BOY AND U CANT STOP MEH.

moving on, cant wait for chinese new year!! even if i just sit idle on my sofa watching replays of old movies i KNOW i will be ultra happy im not doing guard duty somewhere in singapore.. (Y)

i'll try to leave a better and more... intelligent post next time.. too sleepy to think of anything important right now..

uni admission exercise! 2nd try here i come!

SCT LIM J E

2011-01-26T11:56:00.003+08:00

kinda disappointed with myself. broke my own 2 promises. i deserve a bad waking up call..

and im confusing reality with army life.. i really need some time to set myself straight..

i really miss cycling to pasir ris park to chill and gather my own thoughts..

counting down every single day..

Jerome

2011-01-24T16:12:00.001+08:00

its been short posts all the way ever since NS started for me. so since i have abit of time right now i figured i might as well leave myself a post here for future references..

have abit of a back injury, when i stand up i cant really bend my back up straight immediately.. will probably report it after i finish BSLC.. legs aching and dont really feel like exercising much too.. but still needa train my chinups.. IPPT on thurs! dreading it.. really hope the RT on CNY is cancelled..

the weekend was pretty short but really enjoyable nonetheless.. dined at our favourite japanese restaurant at bukit timah with my family who has been really very encouraging throughout these past months i have spent in service to the nation.. esp to dad.. i now feel a closer bond to him.. caught 'shaolin' on sunday at causeway point and had zi char dinner before preparing to bookin.. super looking forward to the next bookout..

i really really really miss my bed and my room. its awesome just to idle on my bed staring at my ceiling.

i really feel like randomly texting people since i've so much free time to text now.. but im restricting myself from that and from snacks so i have myself a reward for achieving silver for my IPPT.

no snacks and no random texts before you achieve IPPT silver, rome. please stick to it.

its a test for myself.

and its already beginning. week 2 of SCS, here i come!

2011-01-22T22:48:00.001+08:00

i finally feel SCS is the right choice for me. seriously.

you cant imagine how much i dread booking back in tomorrow night. AHHHHHHHH!

NVM, 8 weeks nia! STEADY STEADY!

promises mean everything

2011-01-19T19:58:00.003+08:00

until i hit my 8 standard pullups i will not tempt myself with other stuff.

its a promise to myself.

but promise me, please, promise that you will wait for me.

2011-01-14T13:57:00.002+08:00

so the postings are out, specialist cadet school.. sounds good, not that good a posting..

a little disappointed that i did not get into OCS which was what my dad would have liked but nonetheless~

i wonder what life will be like? i hope i get a good buddy and a good section again. please no reynald. if weiquan becomes my buddy.. waaaa life is gonna be fun!

better to train tough and have fun den relax and watch time idle. my thinking for now.

lets make use of our time in NS! three arrows pointing down. here i come!

2011-01-13T16:51:00.002+08:00

how did i spend my block leave?

sat- POP lo! slept at 11am woke at 7pm. dinner at timah's jap with parents. slept at 10pm..
sun- woke at 9am! 19 hours of sleep total!! WTH! met the dudes for lunch at timah. met pri sch friends for dinner at vivo. went to ozy's house for poker overnight.
mon- met up with section 3 for our KTV session at katong.
tues- watched gui ye xiao and lunched with ma at CCK. dinner with shawn boss wei at timah.
weds- bball in the morn with platoon 3. slacked the day away
thurs- gym-ed with wl in the morning. slacked the day away.~

fri- POSTING AT 10am. NOT GONNA SLACK THE DAY AWAY.

2011-01-12T20:57:00.001+08:00

it feels good to let someone know of your secret. one of the biggest secret of my life.

coz i trust my section mates and buddy like that.

2011-01-02T13:48:00.001+08:00

is it my imagination or did that pretty girl on the bus smile at me?

whoever you are, you made my day, pretty girl on 945.

fiction

2011-01-01T09:49:00.001+08:00

the fireworks were so pretty.

but they would have been prettier with you by my side.

happy new year 2011!~

at the touch of a button

2010-12-31T15:44:00.002+08:00

i told my buddy, kai an, something that i have wanted to do for a long time but just did not have the strength to go through with it. and the fact that i said it out loud to someone made me actually do it.

you know you can think about stuff over and over again and you just cant come up with the power to actually do it because you know that that one small action could mean a bigger change in your whole perspective.

the small action i took will forever remind me of my priorities once again.

as much as i do not want to let go, i have to. i know i have to.

one more week to POP.. probably marching my week away wasting time.. its a new phase of life after BMT, a new place and new faces once again.

and maybe hopefully along the way i will be able to find myself a new starlight.

to guide me home.

-RomE

2010-12-26T12:26:00.003+08:00

i know i havent updated since i enlisted..

well, most of my new journal entries have all been entered into my notebook that i use in tekong, the one that includes the ROs also..

anyway, just incase you are a concerned friend who hasnt met up or who doesnt want to meet up, i am doing fine.

i think i'll probably enter SCS for the seargeant course.. but i do not really want to become a sgt.. like i said previously: either OCS or nothing.

we shall see.. bloody pull ups, if only i could do 2 more...

booking in later at 1805.. :(

seeya ON WEDNESDAY THOUGH. HAW HAW HAW

-Recruit J E LIM

2010-11-07T13:37:00.002+08:00

i wanted to write a letter to tell you how much you meant to me, how i do not regret anything and that when you feel down you know that there is someone on this earth that loves you.

people reach out for the things they need the most only at times when they need it most.

i guess its a fresh beginning.

every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

because life's like that.

2010-11-03T21:59:00.002+08:00

somehow before i go into the army i want to tie up all the loose ends in my life

but, i just realised that going in to serve is not the end, and if its not the end, why bother to tie up so many things? its not like i am about to die about something.

and it seems like more of a new beginning rather than an end.

i thought i would really miss the feeling of wanting something, the feeling that i have something to look forward to

but it has been 5 months. and i am actually pretty pleased with what i have right now

contentment lies in oneself. life's too short to be anything but happy.

its times when you feel so displeased with yourself that you just gotta take a step back, breathe in and realize:

just like beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, happiness lies in the mind of the beholder

time to go in with a positive and open attitude.. 5 more days lo!

2010-10-31T23:21:00.003+08:00

just 8 more days and i lose my freedom. for a good whole 3 weeks too. 2 weekends of confinement, yay me.

mom's friends came to visit for fun just now to drink coffee over at my house. friends for over 20 years i guess..

and i sorta envy them. and i really hope all the friends i hold close right now will still remain just as close 20 years from now. i've seen how they've evolved to overlook each other's shortfalls and tolerate each others bad habits and still remain a clique for so long.

to those whom i hold dear, thank you for being my friend. we're still years early.

2010-10-22T11:03:00.002+08:00

2 significant blows dealt the past week

back on my feet. :D

coz life isn't a destination, its a JOURNEY

and the journey was well worth it when it lasted.

and you can call me tira

because tira MIS U. LOL. i think im playing too much baking life.

song of my life

2010-10-19T22:25:00.001+08:00

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to
fix me.

2010-10-11T14:18:00.003+08:00

now that i've stopped working, earned enough to support myself for the next 2 years (together with army pay of course) and stopped studying. (both for SATs and my diploma), im left with only one goal: to get fit for army.

seeing that im still sick, i cant seem to start on my final goal.

and im starting to grow idle. watching videos the whole day, sleeping and snacking..

i know when i start my army i will miss these days but these days seem so meaningless to me.

i guess its the reason why humans can never truly be satisfied with what they have..

time to complete my list of 'to-do's' before the army.. hahahahahahahhaha

2010-10-06T22:24:00.004+08:00

i look at all the SAT essay questions, some of them on life, some on happiness, some on friendship..

and i thought i would by now find it easy to start off these essays but strangely with a pen held in my hand

all i see is a blank paper.

maybe its because i havent learnt enough of such values to be sharing my true thoughts on the subjects.

time has gotten the better of me and now you seem so near but yet so far.

i have so much on my mind right now.

for now i have to just let it go.. until after my SATs. on this SATurday.. lol

tu me manques.

-RomE

2010-10-04T20:17:00.002+08:00

hit my first goal of passing my driving!! now for the remaining 2.. the 4th wish is pretty impossible now i suppose..

1) 12 pullups and 9.45 2.4 timing
2) 2100< score for SAT (this saturday)

shall put in my 200% effort to secure these goals!

MUKYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

its the pwnz to be driving without the fat fucking instructor by your side. amen.

let me fulfil my goals please BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM!

2010-10-02T17:05:00.003+08:00

if you dislike something, there is nothing anyone can say or do to make you like it.

and you cant take the plunge and discover if you really dislike it or was it all just a misconception.

such is love.

and cigarettes.

2010-09-28T21:14:00.003+08:00

and i heard my instructor talk to another guy on his hp: the guy tomorrow definitely wont pass. of course i wont let him pass, must make him take more lessons!

_|_ private fucking instructors are scums.

lucky this time round i'll only be spending 350 for my final try.

wish me luck. and if i fail, next 2 years duneed to drive lo!

2010-09-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

finished watching highschool of the dead. really awesome zombie anime. a pity it only lasted 12 episodes.

and i wonder, what if a real zombie apocalypse does happen? what if it comes in the form of a virus? what if my family members get infected? who will be the first person i try to contact? where will i hide? who will be the first to call me?

would probably type out this scenario in a story, just for kicks.

if the streets are filled with the undead, will i still risk my life to find you and bring you to safety?

sadly, this story will probably be left unpublished. just for personal reading. (;

sometimes, i wish i could dream about this scenario whenever i want it. been trying to for the past few nights but have dreamt of unrelated stuff.

maybe tonight i dream for real.

maybe.

-RomE

dont bother reading.

2010-09-18T21:06:00.003+08:00

been thinking quite long of a good solution for a long term problem, been reading daily posts from an anti-pap group on facebook and thinking of how to solve these political problems.

as you know, I've never really been into politics much. i don't even include politics as a topic for discussion in my daily conversations with people. most of my politic information come either from newspapers, online threads OR my dad. (mostly from my dad actually)

so anyway, like most Singaporeans i was pretty unhappy about the way our current government wasted so much money on the YOG which was pretty much a failure in the eyes of everyone except the people who were directly involved in it. and i pretty much kept this unhappiness to myself UNTIL our dear minister Vivian decided to explain his folly in the most ridiculous matter EVER.

Vingaporeans: how did you possibly under budget 287million dollars? didnt you hire any professional consultants to find the actual cost?!?!?!?!?

Vivian: sorry, China spent alot of money. England is going to spend a lot of money too. BUT the olympic committee is very happy with us. AND this is my first time planning too.

WTF? China and England are hosting REAL olympics. not 15 year-olds doing sports. also, OF COURSE the committee said you did a good job. YOU SPENT 387 MILLION DOLLARS! as for the first time, that is NO EXCUSE PLEASE.

ask yourself: "if i spent 287 million dollars overbudget on my project. what would my boss do?"

the whole mas selamat farce was also amusing to me. what i say is, after wasting SOOO MUCH MONEY chasing one escape convict who got caught by MALAYSIAN police. the least you can do is resign?

if you are the leader, please take the consequences of your subordinates. its why you have the highest position. if this was anywhere else in the world, the right thing to do would be to apologize for the entire fiasco and resign. not be a thick-skin guy and give excuses.

many more issues have led me to dislike the government a little. eg: how one guy criticized the poor people of singapore for being over-reliant and then later came out like a whiny b*tch saying he did not mean it and blah blah. also, the influx of FTs and the merits of being a Singaporean. wheres my benefits HURH.

BUT you cant say the government is not doing a good job overall.

everything is still going well, the economy is recovering, new MRT is being built, NS got better package (but of course, the young men of the nation are doing cheap labour)

so, at first i thought the solution to this problem was having a strong opposition party take over the PAP.

then i realized, DUDE, if you were smart enough or talented enough the PAP would have scouted you long ago to be part of the government. Are there really undiscovered talent in politics? Do great people stand amongst us who can be smart enough to defeat the PAP?

i guess not. even if you were great i wouldn't vote for you anyhow, since the current PAP are doing their jobs well and my HDB is increasing in value and i have a job.

SO the ultimate solution IS: to kick all these losers out of their high perch and in turn introduce the new batch of talented politicians to rule over us. make a mistake letting a terrorist escape/ overspending tax payers money on YOG? GTFO, make way for the new generation of leaders!

in this way, our government can be stable, competent and the people can be contented.

so, ministers Vivian and Kan Sing, step over. time for some better and new ministers!

and to PM Hsien Loong, if they do not resign, please FIRE THEM. as their boss its your god-given right to do so.

and me, a citizen, will continue to VOTE PAP! in fact, everyone will continue to vote PAP.

thank you.

Jerome Lim
pre-enlistee.

2010-09-17T15:50:00.002+08:00

Hey you,

So many things on my mind. Worry about my lost camera.. found some leads but will probably lose $220 buying a new one to replace it.

Havent kept to my goal of studying SATS and working out. Too tired from work to look at the SAT textbooks and leg is injured so i cant run and jump properly.

Really afraid that I would once again fail my driving test at the end of the month and waste all the money. Not afraid of not having the license just dontwant to waste the money.

Caught a movie with my bro yesterday.. Resident evil.. havent done so for a looooong time. like years. i remember the last movie we watched together was Step Up.

around 2 more weeks to the end of my assignment with Safilo. will blog about that too.

I am in the midst of writing a story i heard. i hope i can do it justice.

Will let you read it once im done with it. Until then, i hope you stay happy everyday. cause life's too short to stay anything but happy.

with lots of love,
jerome

with this i will see
if seeing is truly believing.

2010-09-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

wake me up when september ends.

thank you.

2010-09-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

the winner of the game of life will reap the rewards of his success.

the good loser will say that the experience was a chance to learn from his mistakes.

which do you want to be?

-RomE
lost the fight
win the war
only the winner gets to decide the definition of justice.

2010-09-05T00:55:00.003+08:00

Hi you,

Past week has been really a bore i guess. Sometimes i wonder how the working class can keep going on working with nothing to look forward to.

Me: so what are you looking forward to?
Manager E: next friday holiday.

I guess thats called commitment. to yourself, to your family, to your career.

and i realise, i do not want to grow up so soon. but if i were to have a family, something like this is inevitable.

working half our lives away..

depressing..

well, on a lighter note, jap dinner with my parents just now was pretty nice. and also, new boundaries have been set.

take care of yourself in whatever you are doing!

jerome
and as the bus came to a halt at the junction,
a few passengers alighted, never welcome on the bus again.

3 years is a long time

2010-08-31T15:50:00.002+08:00

second time.

i cant believe how dumb i am.. seriously.

not angry, just disappointed.

i guess somethings cant be reciprocated

-rome

goals for sept

2010-08-27T23:57:00.003+08:00

i wonder, in the coming month, will i be able to sacrifice everything for just that one month?

do i even have the mental strength to work, study and exercise at the same time?

needa work to earn $ (at least 1k more)

needa study to ace SATS (aim score>2200)

needa exercise to prepare for NS (aim IPPT gold standard + 100 pushups)

needa pass DRIVING. (less than 20 points this time and no IFs)

all in one month?

all other goals aside, these have top priority in the month of september.

yi kei!!!!!!

-RomE
life is a game of concentration
go back jump go jump go.

a letter to you

2010-08-26T19:50:00.004+08:00

Hi you,

I havent seen you here in awhile, time flies. i hope you are doing well.

Working has been a bore, with the upside being i can visit whatever shopping centre i want to. I must have visted at least 30 different shopping centres the past 3 weeks. It has been way too long that my blog has been left un-updated and dying. This is mostly because I have too much stuff going on in my life to waste 30 minutes on a blog post. However, since my office computer's power supply is burnt, I have the time to update.

So what have I been up to?

Waking up at 7 daily since the start of August for my current job and returning home only after 6.

Improving my dota. (through map-hack nonetheless)

day-dreaming and missing mrt stops ALOT.

Brought ethan kite-flying but it was a fail because wind didnt exist on wednesday evenings.

Had a week selling fujitsu at NUS before that. Boring as hell job, annoying supervisor. Thank god it was only for a week.

Played unlimited rounds of Monopoly Deal and Risk at the MANI PEEPUR CHALET last week.

Watched 2 funny drunks and 2 unfunny drunks. 1 funny drunk kissed the drain like 5 times. The other had epic falls and puked the incredible hulk out.

Lost an epic team battle in bowling final score 330 vs 331.

Cut my hair on monday and look 5 years younger now.

Worked at Intercontinental and spammed their free chips & hagen daz ice cream for 3 weeks.

Lotsa beauty world food as usual with guest star of heng hian keng who is back from US.

Getting an awesome 36 points for my driving test. Retaking again end up Sept.

Celebrating lotsa people's birthdays. puking alot for quanie's @timbre not forgetting brian's@pasta justin's@bbq json&wei's@jack's leon's@home and soon-to-be army boy weiyu's@wherever.

Catching lotsa movies. airbender, expendables, crazies, inception blahblah

Playing baking life on facebook. (i am so ashamed of this, its like confessing to watching gossip girl)

Took my most expensive cab fare to date of $28.00 from Aljunied MRT to NSRCC at ECP

Bought and sucked a pacifier for losing in monopoly deal to a captain and an alien.

Learnt how precious sleep. (alot more precious now that i have so few hours of it)

I guess.. Thats about it.

Cant wait to enlist but still have a last desire before going in and im not even sure if it will materialize.

Take care of yourself!

Warm Regards,
JeRomE
Safilo Marketing
+65 67427703
627A Aljunied Road Biz Tech Centre #07-03

2010-07-29T21:56:00.002+08:00

thank you for the reminder, i was almost close to thinking of you as a friend again..

my bad.

you are just another meaningless existence in my life..

and you wonder why i treat you this way?

dumb fuck

come say it to my face i dare you.

RomE

this made me LOL today

2010-07-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

just take 5 minutes to read the story..

2010-07-07T20:40:00.002+08:00

What a weird time to be pondering about life.. a good read nonetheless.. in short, everything good i do, i do for myself in the end. everything bad i do, i do to myself in the end.

moral: do more good, and if you have to do bad, minimize it.

-RomE
and i have not posted something in quite awhile

contemplative thinking.

2010-06-18T00:34:00.004+08:00

i find this very inspiring.

when i was young my teacher would ask me: "what would you like to be when you grow up?"

i answered: "happy."

she told me i didnt understand the question and i told her she didnt understand life.

dont we all want to grow up to be a happy person?

after all the nonsense, hardwork, pain, bullshit, planning and blahblahblah.. at the end of the day, dont we all just want that one simple feeling that is universal?

the pursuit of happiness. its my definition of life.

there you go, another mystery unravelled.

-RomE

what is life without happiness?

sound without melody.

2010-06-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

letsee, last night i had this super weird dream. i dreamt weiquan got us both into a fight with 2 other random ppl.. end up both my hands had sibei alot of cuts and there was alot of blood but somehow we managed to win the fight breaking both the other guy's noses.. quan's face got badly bruised also but our opponents one worst ba.. and my hand was seriously full of blood..

i think i got to stop watching violent shows.

hopefully have job interview tml.. 8/hour pay sumore.. SEE ANT, GOOD JOBS EXIST OKAY.

please let my lucky streak continue!

-RomE

2010-05-27T23:17:00.003+08:00

its sad that now one of the most interesting thing in my life happens when im in wonderland~

dreaming.

had 3 seperate dreams last night about 3 different people. one of whom i could vaguely remember at the start but i cant remember already.. i know the other 2 is weilong and qinshi, 2 guys i havent really spoke to for awhile.. (maybe not wl.. but qinshi definitely!)

im almost positive these dreams are gonna come true in the future..

maybe im just self-delusional..

either way, good night.

-RomE

2010-05-26T21:59:00.003+08:00

my days have become so meaningless.. its like i've no purpose in life.. plus nothing to look forward to..

idle life = good life?

NEOBAH.

time to not be so choosy with jobs...

2010-05-25T16:08:00.002+08:00

ZOMG House, GossipGirl, Chuck and Supernatural all season finish already!!! WHAT AM I GOING TO WATCH NOW? AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

each show had its own special finale.. each awesome in its own way..

im gonna miss watching each show every week..

-RomE

2010-05-19T21:59:00.002+08:00

house showed me something today.

at your lowest point in life when you feel that days are meaningless and nothing is left for you to live for, the solution to all your problems can come in the most unexpected way.

i just got rejected by both NTU and NUS. havent received letter for NS. havent found a job. have no purpose in life. have nothing to look forward to.

i need you to lift me up.

-RomE

dont read too much

dont read too little.

down

2010-05-17T11:07:00.003+08:00

you know its always good to set aside some time to think about everything in your life to set things straight: your priorities, goals, dreams..

strangely enough, on that 1 hour bus ride home from marina last night by myself.. (coz d rest all boarded 700) i finally found that time to do so..

i realised something that i should have known from the start.

the weekends have blown away yet again.. unlike the weekdays..

fri - kbox-ed at clementi with ozy&his2friends + checked out my guitar.. i've decided that im getting the apx 500 in old violet sunburst color ba.. very chio i know. den we went to beauty for dinner with ant, alf, jang and pascal the motor aeh-see-den-ed. den they left and sis&py came.. reached home at 12+ wth..

<--- super chio

sat - bball in the morn with smurf, bryan and boss with KS&co. owned the court. super fun havent won in a looonng time.. we are too good? den lunched at wm.. evening visited grandma at pasir ris.. my "son" ethan's piano playing skills have been improving..

sun - soccer in the morning.. seriously cannot wake up.. the weather was.. horribly hot. hotter than me. LOL. one goal for rome. :D lunched at wet market. went home to change and den marina with cang, ant, jang and nat. caught district 13 which is quite a lame but okay-okay show i guess.. but its dubbed and dubbed shows are usually crap..

heres some photos i took on my solo cycling last last friday.. a somewhat fail sunset though..

graduation on wednesday..

0 plans for this week. yay for me?

-RomE

waiting here in line
hoping that i'll find
what i've been chasing

2010-05-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

every business has its humble beginnings..

today im inspired.. one day it will be my turn..

every boss started out at the bottom..

every tree grows from a seedling..

-RomE

one day i will plant my own great oak tree

2010-05-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

must finish my to-do list before army... MUST!

2010-05-10T13:09:00.004+08:00

last night when dad turned on the tv at 11pm starhub wasnt working.. havent seen dad look so pissed in a looonnng time.. "cancel the stupid starhub.. always got problem.. stupid people.."

it finally became okay after 15 mins. and we watched manutd win the match but lose the title.. we had invested money into the wigan handicap of +2.5 goals. this meant that wigan could afford to lose by a goal margin of 2 and i'd still win money.

fuck wigan. they got thrashed 8-0.

what did dad have to say? "abramovich bribed the stupid wigan players, im going to go sleep already"

and as i saw the niggers of chelshea celebrating their goals, there was only one thought on my mind: "how did these fucking apes beat us?"

in disbelief, i turned off my tv and the stupid starhub boxset.

2010-05-06T22:25:00.001+08:00

didnt have anytime to do some thinking today. what a waste.

pasir ris park is just not the same as it was before.. :(

2010-05-02T19:59:00.001+08:00

someday that person will be gone

and you wouldn't even notice it.

2010-04-30T15:36:00.002+08:00

why is it in america the girls always get played by the guys? (been watching too much GG and Glee, very Gay i know)

but here, the opposite happens.

-RomE

you look so dumb right now

2010-04-27T21:45:00.002+08:00

zomg i actually feel kindof sad this blog of mine is dying yet again.. i've lost the feel or rather the need to blog out my life anymore at this moment of time.

weds- i cant check my phone to remember what i did, cause i sent my phone for repair on thurs.. TT

thurs- movie day. watched kick-ass at CP and datenight at WM. diff group of ppl. same old sch.

fri- ktv with quan, nicky, jang and ozy. indian dinner. poker-ed overnight at ozy's.

sat- slept till late, sushi-dinner at home watching manutd with dad

sun- soccer, grandma's hse, ying's sendoff dinner

mon- shopping with quan,nicky,jang. ant came fo dinner.

tues- msia with family. cheap blueray, cheap movies and cheap food. (Y)

weds- back to SP once again..

post will be edited.

-RomE