i thought it wouldn't really matter either way, since i kind of already knew we were heading to nowhere.

but still, i tried. and yes, it still hurts.

some people have no intention of hurting others, yet by actions otherwise uncontrollable by themselves, they inexplicably do it without ever knowing. and sometimes even the people who get hurt get so caught up they themselves do not know that they are actually being hurt. and thats ironic.

it finally hit home when both wilson and yanlin said: "dude, its obvious that's just an excuse and it's damn lame".

it hit home hard. like a splash of cold water in the morning, like when i ran into the arcade machine.

and on the long drive home alone, somewhere on the roads of the PIE towards tuas, I finally found the guts to let it go. your chapter has closed.

if there's one thing i've learnt from this, its never to pursue something half-heartedly. Either take the plunge or do not touch the water at all, there's no dip your toes in until the water temperature suits you.

my priorities have been reset. academics, internship, sweden. if cupid comes knocking like quan says, then it shall come. if not, then so be it.

i celebrated this failure with waffles at wafflelicious with my army buds.

-RomE