study room thoughts instead of studying

Sometimes in our life, we invest so much into something unfamiliar because we want to believe that this thing that we have never tried before will turn out to be better than what we already have. We compromise people that we're close to, things that are precious to us and even our own time for steps into the unknown. All because we want so much to believe that something new will not yield the same outcomes that we've already had previously. Much as I hate to say it: new is exciting, old is boring.

Alas, most of these new ventures fall short of our expectations.

We disillusion ourselves to give a little bit more tolerance and invest a little more patience in our new venture,  praying that the end will bring about something that will make it all worthwhile. We do things for new friends that we don't even do for our closest friends. We overlook their shortfalls and celebrate even the slightest victory just so we could feel the sense of accomplishment which was what we were searching for the whole time.

I buy an automated battery operated shaver for a hefty price. I use it. It doesn't work nearly as well as my cheap razor blade at the start. However, since I already invested so much money into the shaver I figured I might as well try to use it more often and give it more chances. And after awhile it may or may not work as well as my blade but I have deceived myself into thinking it does, going even further by promoting it to my friends to reinforce my self belief that the shaver is better than the blade. All this just to feel that the money I've spent was not wasted. However, my blade that has served me faithfully for all the years leading up to my shaver purchase has been left untouched, almost "neglected" even though it never failed me once.

This happens all too often. We buy a drink for a new friend when we've never ever bought even one for your own siblings. We apologise for stuff that we've never done wrong. We brush aside important family events to spend time with others. We give ourselves such high expectations and kill ourselves when we fail to meet them. We say more yes-es to people that we've just known and more no-s to people that we've known our entire lives.

All this and more, just to cement a failure.

I am guilty of this.

From this day on, I will try not to compromise my blades for new shavers.

That being said, new may not always be bad. I just have to set my priorities right.

-RomE