i guess humans are never truly satisfied with what they have or where they currently are. even if they are able to forget that for brief periods of time.

i miss singapore. i miss the meaningless conversations about honglin's alien ancestry or hearing heng's sexcapades with quan, ozy and justin at beautyworld. i miss playing soccer with the kismiss crew. i miss our regular movie outings to films that we watch only because jason approves of them from imdb. i miss making fun of golden tortoises with bryan and boss. i miss the foreigners wy and shuwei. i miss the poker and KF sessions. i miss hanging out in the bunk with my army buddies. i miss seeing cang take yx's chips. i miss cag and alfone's gay laughter. i miss our bitching clique in hall. i miss my poly bros. i miss my family. i miss the food.

but most of all, i miss seeing your faces. all of you.

if i were back in singapore i'd probably be mugging my ass off in hall right now. but instead, i am here in sweden spending my saturday watching anime.

i am not unhappy, but neither am i happy.

what the hell am i doing? what do i want?

i don't know.

tmr's a good day to go to the lake once again.